Today marks the first official day for school and I feel like as though I am the youngest of them all. I’m not sure how I’ll cope with work and studies. To tell you the truth Im not sure if I can. =X
I’ll try my best but I really feel like changing job. I should get a job nearer to my school so at least it won’t be that rushing right. Or maybe I should hire a personal chauffeur. :p
A brand new year marks a brand new beginning. And that also means a brand new challenge. In shaa Allah I’ll go through this phase. I can do it. I must do it!
I dont know how much longer it’s gonna last. Nor do I know how much further the distance will grow. It’s painful enough to see how things are right now. But I can’t do anything much. I don’t know why I feel so hurt and angry when I found out the truth. Life is a cycle I guess. History repeats itself.
Gosh, when it first happened, I had the craziest thoughts. Ending life, changing school, running away are some of the few ideas I had. Yes. I was that bad.
And it was all triggered from one thing. From her effective ways of making me feel invisible. I felt like my existence didn’t even matter to her anymore. I was very close to withdraw myself from school and enroll myself in ITE instead. Only God knows how vulnerable I was.
It took such a long time for me to let go and now it’s happening again. It’s even worse this time. Everything happened behind my back. Those texts I read was bad enough. I can’t imagine anything worse than this.
Maybe it’s me overreacting. Maybe it’s just me feeling insecure.
Or maybe it’s just her way of telling me she don’t need me anymore? That she’s so much happier with someone else and I’m just nothing but a nuisance? There’s so many misunderstandings between us anyway and there’s NONE with the other party.
Ya Robb, give me the willpower for me to go through this difficult phase. If I’m not destined to be there for her forever, find her someone better who would. For only You who knows what’s best for us. Amin
His 21st birthday celebration.. USS trip! Hehe..
He WAS late! Omgggggg. I have never waited for someone that long please. I almost fell asleep. haha. nvm it’s okay. Understandable since he was from work.
I had to rush through the lunch time coz of the delay. It was supposed to be a surprise but he guessed it right before we reach there. I think the route too obvious already. =p
Thankfully it’s not that crowded. All the rides are fun except for accelerator. We love galactica ride the most. But I just dont like the after effects. Haha. It feels like the whole world is spinning and anytime you can just lose your balance and fall off. =x
And and I finally know where the prayer room is. It’s secluded in one corner. :D
I have so much more to share actually but I shall stop here coz I’m tired and I’m late for my lalaland. Hehe.
Take care dear readers! Till I update again next time <3
Yours Truly
Ezzah O
Admission Interview
Okay so the interview went quite well. Alhamdulillah. The head of my course seems to be a friendly man. He happen to be a Singtel customer too. So half the time, we were talking about Singtel. He initially thought I was working under retail/telemarketer. He seems to be surprised when I told him I’m working as customer care officer providing billing support. hehhs. I look too young to handle such calls meh? Haha. Well anywayy, he actually complimented the services provided by the call centre. Aww…! I FEEL SO PROUD CAN? <3 <3
Hopefully I can get through this interview..InsyaAllah..
That aside, I wanna thank Zafirah Bte Abdullah for being so sweet! Hehe. Thank you so much for giving me the support I needed! Hehe. She actually took leave to accompany me all the way to Clementi in the morning and even prepared me script! I truly appreciate all the things you did. And I especially love the role play. Hilang sikit rasa gementar <3 <3
XOXO
Ezzah O
Wow. I just realized my last update was on July 3rd! Haha. I’ve been very busy with work and class and other commitments. I barely have time to switch my laptop on! :P
So my 1 year contract with SingTel will be ending this December and I still have not decided if I should continue working there or find a different job. My colleagues are all very nice people but I’m just tired of answering calls.
Weird as it seems, I kind of miss working with Parkway Hospitals. I miss calling up the different vendors for invitations, conducting the tender briefing, collecting and opening of documents and organizing all those messy documents. It’s really fun. I just hate the part where I have to stay till late night to cover up for my boss. tsk. For some reason, my boss trusted me so much and authorized me to do the opening of documents and auditing it on behalf of my department. Wow right.! I was only a temp staff! But im fine with it though. I like it cause it gives me the experience. And it feels good to be the young one presenting to a bunch of experienced managers and I was their main point of contact everytime. Hehe
That was my desk and the list of vendors I have to go through for the invites. Hee. Yes, it’s that long. That was only one cluster. The beginning stage. It gets longer and longer for the next clusters until eventually we have to consider buying another cupboard for the storage.
Okay, work aside, I recently applied to further my studies in Marketing and I received an email to say I’m shortlisted. I need to go for an interview in about 4 days time. And to be honest, I’m really nervous. I have no idea what kind of question will they ask. =/
I hope I won’t screw it up. Wish me luck people.
xoxo
ezzah
I was having unbearable pain in the morning only to find out I’m having gastric flu. And on top of that, it complements with fever and throbbing headache . I wasn’t even aware I have fever until the doc check my temperature. Now I have to follow the restrictions that comes with it. :-(
Everything seems so wrong. Yes, it could have ended way earlier. And it would have saved me from all the hardship I’m going through now. But I was foolish. I choose to forgive and forget in the hope that it would be better in future. Now after months of hoping, nothing seems to change. In fact it grew worse each time and it makes me feel doubtful of my own choice. Sigh.
